Wednesday, October 05, 2005

i'm back...............

::nobody's perfect, i am nobody.. :5:19 PM::

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Too busy living life in dopaminergic overdrive......
later...


::nobody's perfect, i am nobody.. :11:30 AM::

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It's nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn't that be something
I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next time
But not this time
Even though I know
I don't want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds


::nobody's perfect, i am nobody.. :12:16 PM::

Friday, July 30, 2004

yes..it's in your favourite colour....for you...
 
 
If you hate the taste of wine
why do you drink it till you're blind?
And if you swear that there's no truth and who cares
how come you say it like you're right?
Why are you scared to dream of god
when it's salvation that you want?
You see stars that clear have been dead for years
but the idea just lives on
In our wheels that roll around
as we move over the ground
And all day it seems we've been in between
the past and future town
We are nowhere and it's now
We are nowhere and it's now
and for a ten minute dream in the passenger's seat
while the world was flying by
you haven't been gone very long
but it feels like a life time
I've been sleeping so strange at night
Side effects they don't advertise
I've been sleeping so strange
with a head full of pesticide
I've got no plans in all this time
I feel too restless to unwind
I'm always lost in thought
as I walk a block to my favorite neon sign
where the waitress looks concerned
but she never says a word
just turns the juke box on
and we hum along and I smile back at her
And my friend comes after work
When the features start to blur
She says these bars are filled with things that kill
by now you probably should have learned
Did you forget that yellow bird?
How could you forget your yellow bird?
She took a small silver wreath and pinned it on to me
she said this one will bring you love
and I don't know if it's true but I keep it for good luck


::nobody's perfect, i am nobody.. :2:46 PM::

EVERTYIME....
 
 
Everytime they play 'One call away' on the radio, i miss you..(which recently they have been playin alot)
Everytime i smoke, i miss you
Everytime i see the OC ad, i miss you
Everytime i put on perfume, i miss you
Everytime i smell the perfume on myself, i miss you
Everytime i fiddle with the ring on my finger, i miss you
Everytime i look at my little black book, i miss you
Everytime they play 'she will be loved' on the radio, i miss you
Everytime someone asks me an annoyin question, i miss you.(dun see e link?nvm)
Everytime i bite my nails, i miss you
Everytime i get on a weighin scale, i miss you.(hey i did, last nite at the doctors.)
Everytime before i sleep, i miss you
Everytime i get sick, i miss you
Everytime i see a faggot, i miss you
Everytime i think of using my 'mirror mirror belt', i miss you
Everytime i put damn letters into damn ON-velopes, i miss you
Everytime i pass COSI bar, i miss you
Everytime i wear my super cool 'ring hook onto heel' heels, i miss you
Everytime i wear the hulk boxers to slp, i miss you
Everytime i copy n paste, click,drag n drop, i miss you
everytime i think you miss me, i miss you..  

 



::nobody's perfect, i am nobody.. :9:01 AM::

Thursday, July 29, 2004

And I’d give up forever to touch you’cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that i’ll Ever be And I don’t want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life’cause sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t want to miss you tonight And I don’t want the world to see me’cause I don’t think that they’d Understand When everything’s made to be broken I just want you to know who I am
And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t Coming Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the moviesYeah you bleed just to know you’re alive
And I don’t want the world to see me’cause I don’t think that they’d Understand
When everything’s made to be broken I just want you to know who I am
And I don’t want the world to see me’cause I don’t think that they’dUnderstand
When everything’s made to be broken I just want you to know who I am
And I don’t want the world to see me’cause I don’t think that they’dUnderstand
When everything’s made to be broken I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


::nobody's perfect, i am nobody.. :7:31 PM::

sick again people..!!!
bah...stoopid...
woke up with a fever...went to sleep early yetrday ..couldn't breathe...
fer real...there's something gripping my lungs and stomach and heart...my whole body basically..
and it juz hinders me from breathing...and then occasionally i get this reallie piercing chest burns...my mum says i've got gastric coz my body cant take coffee...
i say...i'm juz dyin of a broken heart....
or maybe i have asthma...hmm....
i'm so tired...i wanna go home...
but after work i've got school...argh...
ah fark it..


 
Restless tonight cause I wasted the light
Between both these times I drew a really thin line
It's nothing I planned and not that I can
But you should be mine across that line
If I trade it all If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing wouldn't that be something
I promise I might not walk on by
Mabe next time but not this time
Even though I know I don't want to know
Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds
If I trade it all, If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
wouldn't that be something


::nobody's perfect, i am nobody.. :11:24 AM::

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

i dreamt of a fever,one that would cure me of this cold, winter-set heart
With heat to melt these frozen tears burned with reasons as to carry on
Into these twisted months I plunge without a light to follow
But I swear that I would follow anything just get me out of here
But you get six months to adapt and you get two more to leave town
And in the event that you do adapt we still might not want you around
But I fell for the promise of a life with a purpose but I know that that's impossible now And so I drink to stay warm and to kill selected memories cause I just can't think anymore about that or about him tonight
And I give myself three days to feel better or else I swear I'll drive right off a fucking cliff because if I can't learn to make myself feel better
how can I expect anyone else to give a shit?
and I scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere.
just get me passed this dead and eternal snowcause I swear that I'm dying
Slowly, but it's happening and if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere
just take me there just take me there just take me there
and say and lie to me and say and lie to me and say it's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright..


::nobody's perfect, i am nobody.. :4:00 PM::

mornin'...
ohkay firstly...is it me..or have all tagboards gone on holiday or sumthin'..??
can't seem to find any of 'em...at everone's blog...maybe it's juz me and my limited computer knowledge...anyhow...
late fer work again today..!!fark...!!...
i've told myself cpuntless times..dat i will never have late nights again..
but last night stayed up till 2.30am...was out with gusTin and miKe..
speakin bout mike..Bi-AtCh..!!!!!i hate you..!!..in a good way of coz...
here's the thing...or rather the story...
yesterday...at work..in the afternoon..was msgin mike planning with him how he was gonna pass
me my shoez..my NEW shoez..which i haven't even worn yet..!!
pretty little vans..i think they're so pretty...
(mike considerately brought 'em hme ,so i wun have 2 walk arnd town with 'em..sweetie)
so yeh...so i jokingly msged him this..
-->"hey mike, meet you after school, dun ferget my shoes and my bouquet of red roses...."
i was jokin'...but mike wasn't...
so anyhow...when school..ended...i walked out of skool..saw mike sitting at the block fiddling with
somthin inside the shoe box..but i juz thought he was 'playin' with my shoez.
so yeh...when he saw me he immediately put the box down and stood up..
and hid behind a pillar....then i was like..'wadafak'..??
i din ask him anything...juz walked to the box and looked at it...afraid yet excited...
on the top of the box...he wrote..'open first...ask later'.....
so i did juz dat...and inside there were 10 (he claims there were 12), beautiful red and pink roses
all nicely laid inside the box...i was like 'oh muh gawd'..!!!i was so caught up with the
beautiful roses..!!!...but i saw mike like slowly inch from pillar to another pillar further away...
and then it hit me..!!..."where muh farkin shoez?'...so i asked him..
and then he muttered...."pe-bfjbhasfwf them.."...i manged to make out pebbles...
so i was like...'pebbles wad'..??....and then he said cooly..'pebbles ate them'...
so i was like.....'hmm...ohkay...'.....it hadn't actually kicked in yet..and besides the roses had
distracte me..so i was still calm...but mike wasnt expectin dat..so he was like..
'i'm serious ya know...pebbles ate them...he chewed on the sole and abit of the top part....oh yeh and it was the left shoe...she has this thing fer left shoes..'....RITE..!!!YOU KNOW AND U JUZ LEFT THEM ON THE FLOOR..!!......i went mad and started hitting him like mad...
juz like punching and hitting...!!...not like angry mad..but more like 'wadafak mad'...
then he said..."they're at the cobbler's gettin 'repaired' now...so yeh dun worry..they said they cld do it'...so i was like ' how long wld it take??'...and he said ...'soon...'....
so yeh...we sat down..and started smokin..i juz stared at the roses....mike said they were JUST shoes..but i've got this thing with shoes...especially $112 ones dat i havent even worn yet..
so we re juz sitting there smoking in silence...then my hostel people walked by...saw me smokin'..
but it was cool...we have a differrent relationshop now...so yeh...we said hi and bye and they went off..then mike got a msg from kev...yes my GOD-masterofallpranks-FATHER....
his msged read.'hey mike you know where my god daughter is, i wanna go surprise her?'...
mike showed me the msg...and i was like..'let's juz go to his now and surprise him instead la..
juz tell him u dunno were i am..'....so dats wad we did...we rode to kev's house to surprise him..
when we reached kev's house..we hid behind the pillar...when he came out..i 'surprised' him..
kev was like' hey...hi...!!'....so yeh dat was dat....
then we went into the house...and i started complainin to kev bout my shoes...
blabber blabber blabber...then kev turns on the porch lights ..and there were my shoes...
sitting there all pretty and 'un-chewed'...!!!!...FARKING BASTARDS..!!!!!!!!.....
thanx alot ah guys...mikey the mastermind...got abused again...!!!....
anywayz so yeh...dats my story...mike's a bi-atch...but he got em ...good...
RESPECT....but it betta not happen again...actually i dun m,ind...if there are roses involved...
oh yeh...and thanx fer the roses....!!! b-e-a-utiful...
yeh sorry guys fer being a tad bit long winded...
juz thought y'all might wanna know how i got played....
yes dassit......

 
-crazy beautiful-...





::nobody's perfect, i am nobody.. :10:39 AM::

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Meaning is sometimes hard to spot
It begins with the flickering of cigarettes
In the darkness of a dorm room
Ssomewhere in the suffocated mid-west
But if this is real then I was mistaken
And if there is truth then why can't we find it?
But beauty comes to those who have been waiting
For something that is bigger than themselves
But this is the sound of the hopeless kids
As they scream from the basements
Of the houses of their parents
And this is the sound of the hopeless ones
As they stare down at their books
And realize that they've been lied to
But if this is real then I was mistaken
And if the vision's gone, then I was not aware
Consistency like that which I have craved
Is that people change so unexpectedly
And realization finds you in a drunken airport
Some planes depart and others never arrive
So with this in mind I don't plan on waiting
If it's time to leave and break these old ties
Without something more the vision is fading
But until it's gone the pain will make us try
It'll make us try
But this is the hope I've been searching for
As the wings catch the sunlight
Of the cold Nebraska skyline
And this is the dream I am dying in
As I wake to find tomorrow
Be content without perfection
But if this is real then I was mistaken
And if the vision's gone then I was not aware



::nobody's perfect, i am nobody.. :10:24 AM::

yesterday was officially one of the worst days of this year...
i hate myself....
and dun bother asking...
i'm fine...



::nobody's perfect, i am nobody.. :10:20 AM::

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